I really can not be any happier. What a change I am thankful for.  I have been going to Boston a lot, and having a blast.

College is over; I did really well this semester.  I am now a Mathmatics minor, with a major in Biological Science/Pre-Medicine.  I’m really starting to study everything, and even went out and bought a few MCAT study books, since I will be taking the test not-so-long into the future.  It is both scary and exciting, but I am sure whatever is thrown my way I can handle with a great boyfriend and a great family by my side.

I am honestly a new, carefree person.  I have never been so calm in my life.  Regardless of the happenings throughout the day, I go to bed realizing I am so much more myself now.  I have really matured a lot recently (having an older boyfriend will do that to you, I suppose).

This year I am going to be starting my undergraduate research at my college, so I am really excited about that.  As of right now I am doing a lot of volunteering, relaxing, spending time with my grandparents, and visiting my boyfriend.  On Saturday I went to the New York Mets vs. New York Yankees game, which of course my team lost.  Shem is a Yankees fan though, so he had a good time.  It was our six-month anniversary this past Thursday, so I thought that would be a great present

The best thing is, there is still so much fun to be experienced this summer, and I can not wait!

… life is always changing. Sometimes it comes and goes in waves, like the beat of the ocean.  Or sometimes it has an odd beat, like a heart muscle palpitating in the thoracic cavity.  Sometimes it varies day by day just like the days of the four seasons vary.  Regardless, it always changes - the question is, do you change with it,  or do you get lost within it?

I have changed a lot since my last last post here on this domain.  I have grown and matured in ways I can’t even begin to describe.  I have met a wonderful man, and I am happy.  I have stopped biting my nails because I have felt stress-free.  I have been doing good in my classes, and am starting to even do my own undergraduate science research on phthalates.  I have also been looking into student groups, professional groups, medical schools, and so forth.  I have really been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life and what makes me happy the most.  I am blessed that I love science and everything to do with science, so my possibilities are endless.

My faith and spirituality has been renewed the past few months.  The power of prayer is truly amazing, and what a gift it truly is.  Many of my prayers have been answered through the delivery of my boyfriend to me.  I know that is so cliche to say, but I always speak the truth.  I was always convinced good things happen to good people, so I have always tried and will always try to be the best person I could be every day I am given the greatest gift of all - another breath, another second, another chance.  There is someone out there that won’t receive that precious gift come tomorrow… so if it is me, I am glad that I lived today to the best of my ability.

Our story is quite an amazing one, we actually first came into contact with each other on a political forum, and then actually physically met at this huge political rally in DC.  It’s great to know he has the same political ideologies as I do.  He is a true American patriot, and I find that amazing.  Our quest to bring back the Constitution is better together, no doubt, but I am a bit biased.  There’s only one tiny thing about this man that is going to take a while to get used to… he is a New York Yankees fan.  And what team does Nikki despise with every bone in her body?  The Yankees.  Who is the Yankees rival team in the greatest city in the world, New York City?  The New York Mets.  What is my favorite baseball team?  The Mets.  This is going to be pretty interesting, no doubt.  But in the end; the Mets will be victorious this year and all will be good.

Life has just been amazing.  I’ve never been happier.

Hmmm, so, I have really been abandoning this site and I apologize.  I’m back to stay.

I’m in my second year of college - I love it.  I’m going to be graduating in two years with a BS in Biology/Pre-Medicine.  I made a decision that no one is going to stand in my way of dream - I have forgotten just how important my dreams are, and I’ve let a lot of people take much more control of my life then they had the right to have.  No more.

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I am a giver.  I give a lot of my time and energy to people - helping them out, talking about their problems, volunteering, etc that I often forget that I sometimes need help myself.  A lot of times when I have things going on I will put my well-being at risk to worry about others.  I can’t do that anymore; I need to establish a balance.  I will always be a ‘giver,’ but I can not let my grades slip and I can not mentally be in the position I was a lot this year.  I proudly wear my heart on my sleeve, and I am not afraid to say I am an emotional person, and I show everyone that too.

When I love, I love emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually.  It should not be taken advantage of in any (or all) forms.  I bruise easily because I am emotional - but those emotions inside me are the same emotions that drive me to make this world a better place and to become a doctor.  I can’t separate them, and that’s all some people want to do - break me down piece by piece.

There are a couple of things I deserve out of life, that every human being on this earth deserves.  They are to feel love, to be respected, and to be happy.  Those three things are intertwined.  A relationship is 50/50, always.  No one person should out-do the other.  If you feel you are putting in more than the other person, talk to them about it, and demand change.  If they refuse to deliver, then it is over and you should not expect them to change, because few do.

Never let anyone take so much control of your life where you are so worried about them, that you end up not doing as well as you could in life.  Love is getting up every morning for another person, and doing your best for that person day-in and day-out.  It’s not about being lazy and expecting someone to bend over backwards for you.  If you can’t make a decision to do good for both yourself and your lover, then really, what can motivate you to do good?

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Thanksgiving is coming up; tomorrow I am waking up and watching the Thanksgiving Parade, from start to finish.  Every year I have always woke up during the middle of it.  One year I will attend the parade (it’s on my ‘To Do List Before I Die‘).  I am just going to spend time with my family; every time Thanksgiving comes around I thank God my family is still whole and that my grandparents are still with us - I treat every one like it’s going to be their last, so I make sure they enjoy it.

I have been fighting with my aunt; I hope everything is ok tomorrow and no confrontations happen.  I’m a peaceful person… she is not.  I’m not going to even bother if she tries to start anything; I’ll just ignore it.

I hope you all have a great thanksgiving!

This is the busiest I have ever been in my life.  I’m trying to get money together and save it.  I’m an official graphic designer for the Revolution March, so that has occupied a lot of my time.  I’ve made a lot of graphics - lets hope they all help.

Summer is just starting to kick off.  This week the high temperature’s are going to be in the 90’s - and sunny, so hopefully I can get a lil’ bit darker.  I want to throw a baseball around for a while, but no one wants to play catch with me… bummer.  Maybe I will start blading again, or start skateboarding again.  In a way I miss that ‘lifestyle,’ I used to love doing that everyday and got a thrill out of it.

I have started a diet - Medifast.  Pretty much what it is is you eat 5 of their meals each day and then a ‘Lean and Green’ meal.  I am so full on this diet, I have really struggled to eat the complete 5 meals.  In 2 weeks I have lost 13lbs, and couldn’t be happier.  What can I say, the college cafeteria food was NOT good to me.  :P  What can you do.  I have also been working out a lot.  I’ve been doing the ‘Slim In 6′ DVD’s.

I miss Eric.  His parents are being strict with him again, and they’re starting to act up.  It’s amazing how they treat him like a 12 year old, even though he’s almost 20.  Let’s see… they took his car keys, his mom has been driving HIS car around, and she refuses to put gas in the car, even after she used HIS gas that he paid for.  Poor kid.  I have to get him away from there.

Life’s been hard… but I’m still loving it. 

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The start of the summer has been quite challenging, considering my favorite hockey team, the Flyers, are in the East Conference Finals and they are losing the series vs. the Penguins 3 games to 0.  Tonight is their last chance to shine, so I’m all decked out in Flyers gear.  So…

Let’s go Flyers!

One year of college is over and done with. I’ve changed so much, but they’re all positive changes.  I love college so much - I have been home for only a few days and I already miss it dearly.  I just miss the peace and quiet - I miss sitting at night in my dorm room with the window open, listening to the river and the birds, and the sounds of the frogs croaking for mates.  I guess that’s why I love Biology.

But I have changed so much as a person.  I like to call it ‘entering womanhood.’  I was young and naive, and I thought I could have life handed to my on a platter - now I know that is not true, and I have to work hard everyday.  I used to push myself aside and focus on everyone - now I know how to balance myself and my friends, which is something I could never do.  I realized there were times I bitched and moaned about my workload, and my hard times, and looked around me and people were going through so much worse.  I don’t take anything for granted anymore.  Every new day is a blessing that I am so grateful for.

Anyway, I’ve become addicted to PostSecret.  Some of the secrets posted on there make me cry, some make me smile, but all that I have seen so far impact me.  I wish more people would read these secrets - some that you read will truly make you thankful for what you have.  Some secrets are so wonderful to read - they’re the good in the world people search for day in and day out.  You read of unemployed citizens finding money and donating to charities instead of spending it, you read of people changing someone’s life.  Something so simple impacts me so much… it doesn’t really take much to make me happy.  PostSecret reminds me there are good people in the world - that, even in a world full of lies, anger, war, and devastation, good can still prevail.  Thank you PostSecret.

In other news… I love standing up for people, animals… things.  I’ve taken a stand for something that is very important to me: my country.  I have been tirelessly campaigning for a presidential candidate.  I have never once been so excited for a cause.  I am happy to say I am a ‘Ron Paul Conservative,’ and that my first presidential vote will be for Ron Paul.  My conscience will be clean; I am not voting for a ‘lesser’ of two evils, because even a lesser of two evils is still an evil.

And I will leave you with this (quick plug for Apple!):