Hmmm, so, I have really been abandoning this site and I apologize.  I’m back to stay.

I’m in my second year of college – I love it.  I’m going to be graduating in two years with a BS in Biology/Pre-Medicine.  I made a decision that no one is going to stand in my way of dream – I have forgotten just how important my dreams are, and I’ve let a lot of people take much more control of my life then they had the right to have.  No more.

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I am a giver.  I give a lot of my time and energy to people – helping them out, talking about their problems, volunteering, etc that I often forget that I sometimes need help myself.  A lot of times when I have things going on I will put my well-being at risk to worry about others.  I can’t do that anymore; I need to establish a balance.  I will always be a ‘giver,’ but I can not let my grades slip and I can not mentally be in the position I was a lot this year.  I proudly wear my heart on my sleeve, and I am not afraid to say I am an emotional person, and I show everyone that too.

When I love, I love emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually.  It should not be taken advantage of in any (or all) forms.  I bruise easily because I am emotional – but those emotions inside me are the same emotions that drive me to make this world a better place and to become a doctor.  I can’t separate them, and that’s all some people want to do – break me down piece by piece.

There are a couple of things I deserve out of life, that every human being on this earth deserves.  They are to feel love, to be respected, and to be happy.  Those three things are intertwined.  A relationship is 50/50, always.  No one person should out-do the other.  If you feel you are putting in more than the other person, talk to them about it, and demand change.  If they refuse to deliver, then it is over and you should not expect them to change, because few do.

Never let anyone take so much control of your life where you are so worried about them, that you end up not doing as well as you could in life.  Love is getting up every morning for another person, and doing your best for that person day-in and day-out.  It’s not about being lazy and expecting someone to bend over backwards for you.  If you can’t make a decision to do good for both yourself and your lover, then really, what can motivate you to do good?

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Thanksgiving is coming up; tomorrow I am waking up and watching the Thanksgiving Parade, from start to finish.  Every year I have always woke up during the middle of it.  One year I will attend the parade (it’s on my ‘To Do List Before I Die‘).  I am just going to spend time with my family; every time Thanksgiving comes around I thank God my family is still whole and that my grandparents are still with us – I treat every one like it’s going to be their last, so I make sure they enjoy it.

I have been fighting with my aunt; I hope everything is ok tomorrow and no confrontations happen.  I’m a peaceful person… she is not.  I’m not going to even bother if she tries to start anything; I’ll just ignore it.

I hope you all have a great thanksgiving!