No matter where you are, what you do or who you're with; you'll ALWAYS have a part of me with you. Always.

I don't know what I'm holding onto with you, but I've held on for eight months now and I just feel like I want to take you home and keep you safe. Shit is so fucked right now but you gotta know.. no matter what's up with you, you can gimme a call. Anytime. I'll listen. Whether its about your exgirlfriend, your mom (RIP, as of today by the way. I'm so sorry.), or your weed, you can give me a call. I'll listen.

There hasn't been a single day that has gone by without me thinking of you. Constant worry. I don't know why. Its this attachment that I have to you.. I don't know why I have it. All I know is that it's all that never changes. Shit piles ontop of old shit and the pile gets bigger and bigger. But the fact is, that attachment that I've got with you.. that's been there since the day you randomly showed up behind my building with your pink shirt, red shorts, cigarette and stolen bike. And it's going to stay with me.

I'll carry it with me with pride. To know that you were the one who taught me everything I know. Tricks of the trade. "You know how flies pile around shit? That's what she does." All our jokes. Everything you've ever said to me.. I can remember it all.

But what really made me want to cry was when you told me to take good care of myself today. And that no matter what happened, you'd always be there to take care of me even if I think you're not. I would have taken the shit for you back then, and I'd do it now. Not because I have had a little crush on you, but because of what we've grown to be. 8 months isn't long.. but it is when all I was left with were questions. But as the time passed, I learned. I learned what you had taught me. Lessons in the making, if you will. I learned everything on how to survive because of you.

You truly changed my life. Really. You're always looking out for me. Whenever I find myself in a messed up situation, I think back to everything you've said to me and I find a way through. My gratitude towards you.. that's something you can only imagine. I'll find you when I turn 16. We'll start this all over again.

You made me fearless. Fear no man, trust no bitch, get 25k in your mouth before you get caught, rely on yourself, take it easy.

Thank you.
So much.

I dont know if an "I love you" is appropriate right now, but I really do cherish those random days you pop back into my life. You're right. Maybe I'll see you in a week, a month, another 8 months, a year, when I'm 16.

No matter what, no matter when or whatever reason.. I've got your back.
Always.

I'll make you proud of me, I promise. And when you see me, you can look at me and remember everything. I don't want you to forget me. Because I'll never.. never ever forget you. And everything you've done for me. One day.. believe me.

One day, I'll make you so proud.

THE LAYOUT IS DONE! Finally! Something I like.

The add comment page is kinda messed but really, I don't care. I'm too lazy to fix it.

I haven't gone to school for the past two days. It's been nice, actually. I'm just very very tired at the moment. But whatever.

I have a French book report due today, on the first book in the Series Of Unfortunate Events. I have never read any of those books, even in English. I find them terribly boring.

Well, this weekends going to be pretty good. David's coming down to Mississauga, and we're going shopping. I love when we go shopping because he always has something funny to say about everything. It's quite nice.

Anywayssss, I think I should make content for the site. But I'm lazy. Maybe another time.

EDIT// I have been tagged by Meisy! So here it is.

Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

1) I am Filipino and Italian. Sweet mix.
2) I am a former ballerina.
3) I listen to mostly euro, trance, techno, house & happy hardcore. But I do listen to bits of everything.
4) I'm thirteen. Actually, I assume a few of you knew that but I have nothing interesting to write about myself. Im a boring person.
5) Half of the people I know offline call me "Loca" because it's the female version of my boyfriends nickname, "Loco." Essentially, it just means were both crazy.. which I cant deny.
6) I am insanely short. I barely make 5'1"
7) My favorite brand is TNA.
8) After looking at the same layout for 3 days, I'll most likely hate it. This is why I cant have nice things.
9) 60% of my hair is clip in extensions. I chopped it all off two years ago, then got sewn in extensions that killed most of my hair during the summer. Now, it's being a pain in the ass and growing awful slow.
10) I can speak fluent French.

I'll tag..
Meh, doesn't matter lol.

Turns out, I hate this layout.
And, I should go to school more often. Haha.

New layout being worked on behind the scenes.
Get psyched.

EDIT// Haha I lied. Thank you, layout block. I made a cute notebook lineart though. I'm not sure if I'll make a layout with it, though. Nevermind. I got it started, this layouts gonna look great.

Hmm, seems the drama has calmed down a bit. I'm really happy about that.

Well, nothing new really for this weekend. Had no school yesterday but ended up spending the day at home. Its mucky outside. I'm not too sure if I'd enjoy going outside and getting my pants and shoes soaked more than staying at home and watching CSI: Miami reruns.

Other than that, I feel like I havent gone shopping in forever! I used to go every week and now its hardly ever. But, I did find a very nice sweater I think I'm going to buy from Aritzia when I do get enough money. It's gorgeous. It's sixty dollars I'm pretty sure. Im only twenty five dollars away.

This weekend might blow a bit though.. I don't get to see David. Normally I see him every weekend but it is really gross outside and a two hour bus ride seems like it would take much much longer on days like this. This is the second time that we skipped a week, but two weeks isn't long anyways. Living in different cities is a bit of a hassle. I guess things will be alot better when he gets his license.

Hah, and I finally finished the site! I'm very glad. I really like how it turned out, you know? I'm still not too sure about the layout though, maybe it'll grow on me.

I hope it will.

EDIT// later.. Remember how I said that all this drama had finally boiled down? It hasnt. It's escalated into full on beef. Over absolutely nothing!

I'm trying to make my viewpoint as unbiased as possible, trying to consider things from the other person's eyes but really now! This is childish! "Blah blah, I'm going to stab you in the head with a shank because you called her fat and you don't like her anymore and you don't know me but she asked me to get rid of you because she can't handle her own problems so I will because I am a hardcore gangster and I'll kill you because you said something about my momma and because she told me to and I have nothing better to do with my time than to start drama and collect gangster points." Like, I'm trying my best to keep my cool and not explode on every single one of you and tell you how fucking stupid you sound on msn, threatening my boyfriend because he no longer wants to be friends with your friend, who ruined his best friend's life just for the hell of it?! Are you fucking kidding me?!

For the love of god, get over it! You made his girlfriend break up with him because his friend broke up with you and you thought revenge would be sweet. He called you fat, you hacked his profile. GET OVER IT. And please. I have my own problems and I cannot act as a mentor and a peace maker in all of yours. Grow the fuck up or shut the fuck up. Really now. If you have a problem, handle it like you're grown- not behind a computer screen. Simple.

Well, as for today, it actually was very good! I went to the mall with my mom and picked out this cocktail dress for the afterparty on graduation. It was only $200 with tax and everything. I'm really happy.

As for the Aritzia sweater, I ended up buying a different one for $15 more. But it is alot thicker so it'll be useful for the remainder of winter. I have to say, I really do like it.

Well, thats all I really have to write about, so I guess I'm done.

Haha. First blog. Site's not even fully done yet, but I'm really pissed off.

I really, honestly hate drama caused on the internet. Like, lets grow up a tad bit and if you have a problem with someone, lets have the slightest hint of maturity and deal with it face to face, rather than on msn. Wowee. You can type a threatening sentance. Oh, how lovely!

And, its extremely funny as well because I have to go through all this because my boyfriend is right and apparently, people can't handle that so they take it out on me. Do you even know me past my first name? Really now. Thats dissappointing.

And now, you feel the need to get random guys we don't even know on my boyfriend? Stab him with a shank? Yeah.. Okay. I'm just glad he's not stupid enough to actually show up to a fight four hours away. In your area. Alone. Come on, now. Deal with your own problems and stop dragging people into it.

Enough rambling.

Well, for online news.. New site! I kind of missed having one. The layout is.. blehh, I dont know if I like it. Its alright, I guess. Its just very typical of me.

I still have to finish the rest of the site, so I guess thats it for this blog.

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